In’s & Out’s of the Thaden Family

Oh my, how our trip was and I miss everyone very much!!!

First the niceties: I seen my sister (who I haven’t seen in 16 years), I introduced my wife to my mom’s side of the family (they loved her and she loved them), and I feel more alive than ever.

Now for the passion and feeling: Margaret and I flew down to Dallas where my mom lives, because of my little brother’s passing. It was weird though, because I kept looking around for him to show up. When you have 3 little brothers, it’s hard knowing that there’s only 2 now. Very strange and very hard. It felt/feels like a puzzle piece was/is missing from making things complete. I miss my little brother. I did notice a change in my mom however. I noticed she needs and wants family around more and that makes me feel real good. I never felt the presence from her like I did these past few days. What an awesome feeling. Also, my step dad and I get along so much better now than we did when I was a youngster growing up. His name is Terry and he is such a kind, caring soul that is very generous. I can honestly say now, that I love my step-dad and mean it (instead of saying that I just like him). Everything was very synchronistic. Personally, I feel that my little brother Steven’s passing was his way of bringing us all together. An important lesson I learned was how important family is. This whole time I thought Margaret was all the family I needed, but after this, I know in my soul that she is part of me, but I need family too. What an eye opener. I’m sad, because I lost a brother, but happy because of what he did for me. It was like his final personal message to everyone he knew and loved. I know I grew up quite a bit from all this.

Steven I’ll miss you forever just like I miss my older brother Duane. I love you and will pray and talk to you everynight as I have since your passing. I miss you so much and am very happy to have talked to you one last time prior to Thanksgiving. You’re very much like me, spiritual, a dreamer, and always searching. I can’t wait till we’re all one big family again. You made me a better person.

Tags: death, love, reunion, steven