Oh my, how our trip was and I miss everyone very much!!!
First the niceties: I seen my sister (who I haven’t seen in 16 years), I introduced my wife to my mom’s side of the family (they loved her and she loved them), and I feel more alive than ever.
Now for the passion and feeling: Margaret and I flew down to Dallas where my mom lives, because of my little brother’s passing. It was weird though, because I kept looking around for him to show up. When you have 3 little brothers, it’s hard knowing that there’s only 2 now. Very strange and very hard. It felt/feels like a puzzle piece was/is missing from making things complete. I miss my little brother. I did notice a change in my mom however. I noticed she needs and wants family around more and that makes me feel real good. I never felt the presence from her like I did these past few days. What an awesome feeling. Also, my step dad and I get along so much better now than we did when I was a youngster growing up. His name is Terry and he is such a kind, caring soul that is very generous. I can honestly say now, that I love my step-dad and mean it (instead of saying that I just like him). Everything was very synchronistic. Personally, I feel that my little brother Steven’s passing was his way of bringing us all together. An important lesson I learned was how important family is. This whole time I thought Margaret was all the family I needed, but after this, I know in my soul that she is part of me, but I need family too. What an eye opener. I’m sad, because I lost a brother, but happy because of what he did for me. It was like his final personal message to everyone he knew and loved. I know I grew up quite a bit from all this.
Steven I’ll miss you forever just like I miss my older brother Duane. I love you and will pray and talk to you everynight as I have since your passing. I miss you so much and am very happy to have talked to you one last time prior to Thanksgiving. You’re very much like me, spiritual, a dreamer, and always searching. I can’t wait till we’re all one big family again. You made me a better person.
Our little family currently consists of Darryl, me, along with our pups Lucas & Lily. We've been together for 14 years now, and we love every minute of it. I enjoy all types of crafty things such as knitting, crocheting, photography, sewing, and making cards. Darryl enjoys gaming (both PC and PS3), playing guitar, cooking, and just veggin out. Lucas and Lily just love to sleep, eat, and pets.
aww =( this kinda made me cry… I miss you Darryl and I miss Steven too
I sure hope you guys can come down again I felt kinda lost today without you guys. Take care brother 
I’m so sorry for your loss.
It’s amazing how even with the passing of someone we honestly can’t see life without there is hope in the sorrow. Very inspirational post D Thank you for sharing it with us!
Welcome home.
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I’m a very changed person, that’s for sure. In a very VERY good way.
I Love You Brother……
I love you too Sis